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I'm going back to Wordpress for blogging.  I keep trying to use blogger and it always disappoints.  I guess I'm just a wordpress kinda' gal!  My blog is at www.miaisneat.wordpress.com .  I've imported all my blog postings from this blog onto my wordpress blog.  I will still be following everybody from wordpress so I can still see what is going on. 

Diana

http://www.livestream.com/brixtv?utm_source=lsplayer&utm_medium=ui-play&utm_campaign=click-bait&utm_content=brixtv

This is a link to a streaming video of my friend, Diana's testimony.  This was recorded several months ago and is streaming over and over today.  More than likely, when you click the link you will be somewhere in the middle of the video.  Just let it play until the end and then it will start over at the beginning and you can see my beautiful friend in Christ.  

R2 VLCD Day 20

No change in weight today, but I kinda gave up a little last night though.  I ate some sugar free chocolates that were definitely not on protocol.  I noticed the difference in my attitude though, I wasn't eating them because I was sad about Diana, or because I'm PMSing (that's right, TOM is like a week late grrr), or because I was frustrated with gaining .6 lbs yesterday.  I ate them because they just sounded good.  I ate just a few and had no problems controlling myself from eating the whole bag.  I got no comfort from them, but didn't expect to either so I'm kind of excited to see that I was able to eat something because a little bit sounded good, rather than because I felt driven to eat it by some sick compulsion.

Still no word on Diana today.  Nobody in her family posted anything on Facebook yesterday (no prayer requests or anything, and normally they post a ton of those).  I think the Facebook radio silence is not a good sign.  Because she is/was in so much pain in the last few days, I hope the Lord takes her quickly if He hasn't already.  I'm not ready for the pain that we will all experience, but I'd rather be the one in pain than have her continue to live that way.  She's done her time now, and now her turn is over.  I guess the hardest part for me to deal with is thinking of her husband and kids.  I know that God is there to protect them but the kids...the kids at the funeral will absolutely kill me.  I attended a funeral a few years ago for Aaron's boss' wife, Debbie,  and I was okay until the family was ushered in.  Just one look at the kids and I lost it.  I had never even met Debbie but I will never forget her funeral for as long as I live.  She had so many amazing people who loved her, the church was huge and it was PACKED.  Diana's funeral will probably be the same way except this time I will know the person who died.  I warned Aaron that I'm going to carry a whole box of tissues in with me.  Screw the tiny travel pack.

R2 VLCD Day 19

Back in the 160's today (160.4 - this is my official LDW).  I still haven't started TOM so it kind of sucks that my weight is going up and down and back up and my LDW is going to be thrown off by all of this, but oh well.

Diana is going to die this week.  Probably today if she hasn't already died last night.  She is a 28 year old mother of two, and the perfect wife.  Her funeral will be one of the hardest days of my life.  I know she will finally be pain free and will be with Jesus, but the world still needs her!

R2 VLCD Day 18

I finally got into the 150s!  One tiny hiccup and I'll be back into the 160's but for right now I'm in the 150's.  Woohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

R2 VLCD Day 17

Wow, I had a huge loss this morning!  Well, it was only .4 lbs, but it seems huge compared to what I've been squeaking out lately.  I have three more days of drops (which includes today) and I'm only .4 lbs away from being in the 150's.  I'm not holding my breath for that to happen, but I AM holding my breath for this cheesy crust pizza recipe that Erica told me about last night.  I can't wait to go to her house in November and eat that pizza!  The whole thing.  No sharing, not even with her kids.  If they even come close to me, I'll give them a look to scare them away.  Between my evil eye and my frothing mouth, I'm sure they are going to LOVE me.  lololol.  I already miss my kids while I'm gone, and I'm not even close to leaving yet. 

R2 VLCD Day 16

My darn body just doesn't want to give up any fat I guess because I only lost another .2 lbs.  I finally made it to 160.8.  I thought by now I'd be well into the 150's.  I'm definitely giving my body a break before I do round 3 because the diet isn't worth the tiny amounts of weight that I'm losing right now.  My mom's having a hard time right now, too.  She's on a pretty long stall which is frustrating her and me.  I want to fix it for her and I don't know how.  I told her last night to double up on her protein at dinner and maybe try not eating shrimp for awhile (I heard that shrimp stalls some people).  I hope it works because I feel so bad for her right now.  She really needs to do an apple day, but I think she loves apple day as much as I do, lol.