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I'm going back to Wordpress for blogging.  I keep trying to use blogger and it always disappoints.  I guess I'm just a wordpress kinda' gal!  My blog is at www.miaisneat.wordpress.com .  I've imported all my blog postings from this blog onto my wordpress blog.  I will still be following everybody from wordpress so I can still see what is going on. 

Diana

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This is a link to a streaming video of my friend, Diana's testimony.  This was recorded several months ago and is streaming over and over today.  More than likely, when you click the link you will be somewhere in the middle of the video.  Just let it play until the end and then it will start over at the beginning and you can see my beautiful friend in Christ.  

R2 VLCD Day 20

No change in weight today, but I kinda gave up a little last night though.  I ate some sugar free chocolates that were definitely not on protocol.  I noticed the difference in my attitude though, I wasn't eating them because I was sad about Diana, or because I'm PMSing (that's right, TOM is like a week late grrr), or because I was frustrated with gaining .6 lbs yesterday.  I ate them because they just sounded good.  I ate just a few and had no problems controlling myself from eating the whole bag.  I got no comfort from them, but didn't expect to either so I'm kind of excited to see that I was able to eat something because a little bit sounded good, rather than because I felt driven to eat it by some sick compulsion.

Still no word on Diana today.  Nobody in her family posted anything on Facebook yesterday (no prayer requests or anything, and normally they post a ton of those).  I think the Facebook radio silence is not a good sign.  Because she is/was in so much pain in the last few days, I hope the Lord takes her quickly if He hasn't already.  I'm not ready for the pain that we will all experience, but I'd rather be the one in pain than have her continue to live that way.  She's done her time now, and now her turn is over.  I guess the hardest part for me to deal with is thinking of her husband and kids.  I know that God is there to protect them but the kids...the kids at the funeral will absolutely kill me.  I attended a funeral a few years ago for Aaron's boss' wife, Debbie,  and I was okay until the family was ushered in.  Just one look at the kids and I lost it.  I had never even met Debbie but I will never forget her funeral for as long as I live.  She had so many amazing people who loved her, the church was huge and it was PACKED.  Diana's funeral will probably be the same way except this time I will know the person who died.  I warned Aaron that I'm going to carry a whole box of tissues in with me.  Screw the tiny travel pack.

R2 VLCD Day 19

Back in the 160's today (160.4 - this is my official LDW).  I still haven't started TOM so it kind of sucks that my weight is going up and down and back up and my LDW is going to be thrown off by all of this, but oh well.

Diana is going to die this week.  Probably today if she hasn't already died last night.  She is a 28 year old mother of two, and the perfect wife.  Her funeral will be one of the hardest days of my life.  I know she will finally be pain free and will be with Jesus, but the world still needs her!

R2 VLCD Day 18

I finally got into the 150s!  One tiny hiccup and I'll be back into the 160's but for right now I'm in the 150's.  Woohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

R2 VLCD Day 17

Wow, I had a huge loss this morning!  Well, it was only .4 lbs, but it seems huge compared to what I've been squeaking out lately.  I have three more days of drops (which includes today) and I'm only .4 lbs away from being in the 150's.  I'm not holding my breath for that to happen, but I AM holding my breath for this cheesy crust pizza recipe that Erica told me about last night.  I can't wait to go to her house in November and eat that pizza!  The whole thing.  No sharing, not even with her kids.  If they even come close to me, I'll give them a look to scare them away.  Between my evil eye and my frothing mouth, I'm sure they are going to LOVE me.  lololol.  I already miss my kids while I'm gone, and I'm not even close to leaving yet. 

R2 VLCD Day 16

My darn body just doesn't want to give up any fat I guess because I only lost another .2 lbs.  I finally made it to 160.8.  I thought by now I'd be well into the 150's.  I'm definitely giving my body a break before I do round 3 because the diet isn't worth the tiny amounts of weight that I'm losing right now.  My mom's having a hard time right now, too.  She's on a pretty long stall which is frustrating her and me.  I want to fix it for her and I don't know how.  I told her last night to double up on her protein at dinner and maybe try not eating shrimp for awhile (I heard that shrimp stalls some people).  I hope it works because I feel so bad for her right now.  She really needs to do an apple day, but I think she loves apple day as much as I do, lol.

R2 VLCD Day 15

I lost the weight that I gained yesterday so I'm happy with that.  I wish TOM was more regular for me because I've been waiting and waiting for it to start and nothing yet.  I guess I would rather have it be irregular than have it be painful.  I know some people get cramps really bad and I've never had them so that's good.  I'm so looking forward to a week from now!  I'm not all giddy about the food itself like I was last time I was a week away from phase 3, I'm just ready to be able to eat something different for a change.   All of Bre's talk about sandwiches makes me want a grilled cheese pretty bad.  I want string cheese and I want cashews again.  Yum!

R2 VLCD Day 14

I saw that somebody on an HCG blog had used one slice of Sara Lee Delightful bread in place of her grissini breadsticks and had no problems with it, so I decided to give it a try last night.  I guess I had a problem with it because I woke up to a .4 lb gain this morning...boo.  Oh well, it was worth a try.  I'm still 7.4 lbs away from officially being in my normal weight range for my height.  Round two is really sucking, I've only lost 8.6  lbs in two weeks.  I'm starting to think that the last 16 lbs will take more than the 4 weeks that I have left on round two (if I were to do a six week round).  I think I need a break, I'm not sure if I can handle this much longer.  I may go back on my original plan of doing a three week round and doing round three after the holidays are over.  I think I need a break, both physically and mentally.  I hate being so wishy-washy.  Some days I feel like I could do this diet forever, and other days I feel like I can't take another day of it.  I also want to quit smoking, but am afraid of doing that until after I'm done with the diet because I really don't think I can handle both things at the same time.

Update:  I just went to look at Erica's blog and saw her loss after TOM was over.  I know mine is somewhere right around the corner, so maybe that's why I'm not losing much lately.  I'm not going to blame the gain on TOM though, I KNOW that was from eating that stupid bread.  

R2 VLCD Day 13

Another .4 lbs down this morning and I even went out to eat at Tokyo Joe's for lunch yesterday (my boss decided to give me my review yesterday).  I have the best boss ever, seriously. 

Last night I was shaving my legs and somehow got my fingers in the way and literally shaved the tops of my fingernails off of the first two fingers on my left hand.  You know how when you bite your nails down to the quick and they hurt?  Well this is that same pain, times about 10.  It hurts so freakin' bad!  And then I fell up the same stairs that I fell down really hard the other day (the slate tile stairs that lead up to my room...the ones with the really sharp corners).  I basically caught the edge of the stairs with my toes and they slipped off and one of my toes got all cut up too.  I hate our stairs and I have bandaids all over me today.  I hate being so clumsy, lol.